This is irrelevant.

I just need to rant a little bit about my life.

Right now these things are stopping that smile reaching my face;

-My mother; "get a job," "I'm not giving you anything until you get a job," "revise more, you're failing everything."

-The fact that I am indeed, failing everything. Nothing's working at school- my teachers are on my case, I need to do more work that I don't understand and can't do.

-My boyfriend.. I don't know. I fail at relationships, I don't know how to handle myself. I want to scream at myself for being such a fat bitch and can't understand why anyone would ever have sex with me.

-Something tiny happens and I feel the need to scream, cry and throw things. Tiny things, like nail varnish going wrong.. it makes me want to smash the bottle beneath my feet and cry.

-I officially want to hurt someone all the time.

-I feel like I'm going insane.. I can't remember anything.. someone will tell me something and I won't be able to remember the conversation 3 minutes later.

Am I going crazy? Is it stress? What can I do to stop it?

sigh; ciao.