all that glitters

Everything on the tv today is about relationships. they tell us theyre amazing, if you look good someone loves you. i know this is bullshit.
Relationships break you, they destroy you inside and when you finnally find one that goes right, it's fragile and there's a constant worry about what will go wrong in the future.
so why do we bother?
we bother because when someone loves you it means the world to you, your whole universe explodes into tiny fragments of your concience, and when you love someone everything you do ou do it for them, everything you say you're saying it to them, everything you hear you're hearing it from them, and it's wonderful.
i'v ebeen in relationships, plenty. I've had boyfriends and flings and one-nighters and everything under the sun. Have i found what i wanted? Of course not. Only on the television do we see the perfect looking man lifting the chisled chin of a beautiful woman and kissing her gently then whispering 'i love you' into her ear. Only on the television is there love-making, or true romance, or that perfect man.
I honestly wish I had someone to stand on my little tippy toes and kiss on the cheek, or someone i could wrap my arms around and kiss in the rain. All we get nowa days is meaningless bedroom talk and unreturned phonecalls.

so tell me, what is love? this pointless, hurtful bedroom talk and lonely walks home after while you think of them, unknown to us while they're with their girlfriend? or is it loving so much you could marry them the first time you look at them and needing them so much you could burst, and actually having that feeling returned?

is love when the feeling is mutual? or can you love without being loved?

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