classical music.

is the best music in the world. it makes me think.
let's think tonight. I'm gona bore you all and make a list of my problems! hurrah.
boys: okay. don't even get me started. in the past week or so i've been pissed about so much by boys, and so i've decided to give up on my potentials because if you look back to my last blog, there's really no point
school: oh golly. friends are all over the place, exams have just started and my brain cells have packd up and gone away for the next two weeks leaving my body stranded to scribble it's usual nonsense onto exams papers then kill itself with worry for the next year.
home: ah so much pressure to do well in school, get a good boyfriend and have the perfect friends. little do they know that my friends and i get pissed all the time and my mother will never approve of any of my boyfriends.

This, my friends, is why we have classical music. it drowns out all of this crap and lets me think for a little while about nothing much really, about myself for a while, my needs, and how i will acheive them. How im feeling etc. It's my way of saying 'hi self, haven't spoken in a while. how's it hanging?' and i can have a lovely little conversation for a while.

I think there's only one person who actually understands me, and i didn't even mean for them to.
That's how you know you have a real friend.

Tonight i feel sentimental and deep and stuff, but i don't really know what i'm talking about. i'm just listening to soft sounds and wondering about life and what will come of me in the future. will i ever get the grades i want and do an amazing job? will i ever get married? will i fall in love? will i have children? will i travel the world? who knows. only time will tell, and as we know, time changes for no one, so i guess i'll only know when i'm older. It's scary to think about being older really. I dont want to imagine being 20 or 30 or maybe even 50. that's how old mums are supposed to be, not me.

okay, getting a bit too phsycological and i'm gonna start ranting about nothing if i carry on.

oh yeah and ive been asked, check out deans dnb. it's pretty immense, www.youtube.com/DeanCMusic


ciao, ti amo :)